The Goalie Has Been Removed

 This is wild. Today we got my IUD removed to officially start our journey of trying to get pregnant. We want to get pregnant this year, sometime in the summer and then hopefully give birth some time in the Spring of next year. If everything goes to plan. That's so wild. I am so excited. And anxious. I bought a fertility book that basically is answering all the questions I've been googling anyway. I want to be prepared, I want to be realistic and rational. I want to be hopeful and excited but also I know how long and painful trying for pregnancy can be. I'm not stupid. I'm terrified of not being able to get pregnant. Oh but for the first time in my life I'm letting myself be a little bit more hopeful and positive about something - and that's scary. 

In the ideal world, my period starts immediately and I'm on a regular cycle that we can track pretty simply and are able to know when I'm ovulating so that we can get pregnant right away. We wait maybe 3-4 months and we get a positive test and then we start planning the future. But I recently got low AMH scores for a 34 year old so realistically, it may take longer than we expect to get pregnant. Which is okay. It's such a strange thing to allow myself to be BOTH scared out of my mind and also SO freaking excited to even start this journey. I don't think anyone in my family has ever planned a pregnancy, it's always just been a surprise. It's so amazing, and such a privilege to be able to be in a place in my life to be able to plan ahead and be prepared for a family. I can't believe this is all really happening now!!!!!