In Recovery

 Destabilizing. That's the word my therapist for the last three weeks of my life and In Recovery is how he would describe these next few days as I settle back in. I knew it was temporary yet it was quite traumatizing too. I am happy to back home and my foot is finally on the mend. Slowly. 

Slowly. Healing is always so slow. Give myself permission to take time to heal. Just because I am healing does not mean I am not worthy of good things right now. My worth does not change based on where I am at in my healing journey. If you haven't caught on I'm not talking about my foot anymore. The deeper I go into therapy the more I learn about myself and the brokenness and hurt that I've had to endure. Trauma is not normal. Not everyone had a traumatizing childhood. Give myself permission to take time to heal. Just because I am healing does not mean I not worthy of good things right now. I know healing and recovery is going to happen in layers. New things I encounter, marriage, having children, etc.. are going to allow me to discover new things I must heal from. I will be healing my whole life. I will never arrive. Just because I am healing does not mean I not worthy of good things right now.